urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lifesmixedtape lifesmixedtape lifesmixedtape 2006-05-09T21:55:04Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lifesmixedtape:973 2006-05-09T21:55:04Z 2006-05-09T21:55:04Z what is it that you need from me?<br />i would love to know<br />do you want me to stay?<br />or do you want me to go?<br />because confusion seems to fit me quite well<br />but i'm finding out that what i need is a spell<br />ill cast it on you<br />& you'll see that trying to be perfect<br />can be perfect hell<br /><br />so come along on this journey with me<br />we'll fly away to a place where everything is free<br />even heartbreak and loneliness seem to fade<br />the colors are bright and sparkling<br />it'll seem we've got it made<br />until the alarm beeps<br />and you find yourself groggy and awake<br />for it was only a delusion of imagination --<br />some call it a dream<br /><br />don't worry we can go again<br />but it doesn't last long<br /><br />so instead of relying on all that is fake<br />bring yourself back to yo senses<br />and lets talk about this<br />lets find out what's at stake<br />we'll lay it all out<br />maybe ponder a bite about where it all went wrong<br />maybe a left when the map said right?<br />maybe you were driving to fast and missed the light?<br />did you forget what you were looking for?<br />did you remember where to go?<br /><br />let's get together and retrace the path<br />it's no big deal<br />don't worry about it<br />maybe it's all a dream?<br />i'm afraid not, but that doesn't mean <br />everything is lost<br />no, no, not at all<br />you know everyone does it<br />everyone falls<br /><br /><br />just make the call. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lifesmixedtape:634 2006-05-02T02:46:23Z 2006-05-02T02:46:23Z The Greencards - Time the problem with me is the same it's ever been.<br />i want to slow down, but my brain tells me to speed up, and there i go again.<br />"take one day at a time" she says.<br />but the world just won't let me.<br />time goes either too fast or too slow..<br />not directing me... i never know which way to go.<br /><br />i'm confused about something, just like before.<br />i thought this time it would be different, but what do i know..<br />everyday i feel like i learn something new, only for it to come back around<br />and i'm left with nothing, but that's just what im use to.<br />it's really no big deal, just the thoughts keep turning <br />round and round, just like a ferris wheel.<br /><br />and so they come and go.<br />nothing is meant to last.<br />atleast that i know.<br />all the best things i've ever had, some how find a way out.<br />and once they leave, im left to wonder...<br />how did i ever get here..how did i lose track?<br />and do i dare to turn back?<br /><br />but this time i'm just gonna keep on going.<br />i dont want to think anymore about where i went wrong...<br />or what i left behind me,<br />because it is possible to change.<br />there is a chance that things could be different.<br /><br />i had to find out on my own,<br />and i had to go alone.<br /><br />and after all that has been,<br />i finally feel that maybe i know where i'm going,<br />not what i'm going to do when i get there,<br />but this time there's an arrow<br />and it's pointing straight to you.<br />i want all that i use to think about to be gone.<br />i want to prove it all wrong...<br /><br />maybe this one good thing might just last.<br />it won't be easy,<br />but i'm okay with that.<br />i can fight now,<br />i'm stronger then before.<br />so i'm for the challenge.<br />i'll always be ready for more.<br /><br /><br /><br />so as the days go on,<br />and its time to say goodbye...<br />just know that this time its worth it,<br />this time i'm going to try.<br />because someday we'll look back and say<br />"i guess we were right, it was meant to be this way." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lifesmixedtape:282 2006-04-09T20:34:41Z 2006-04-09T20:34:41Z Im Ready & Dark Blue - Jack's Mannequin today is another day.<br />today is a day with a bright beginning and a hopeful night.<br />i see a future that is filled with sunshine, for spring break is right around the corner.<br />spring break is something to hope for.<br />it is a much needed elapse in time. time spent away from home & the brookfield bubble.<br />i am beginning to realize that this place i call home & the bubble, is somewhere i can come to see it all.<br />when i come back here there will be a rush of comfort & familiarity. the place that has shaped my life.<br />a place that video-taped& photographed the smiles, the tears, the late night break-downs, and moments of pure bliss.<br />a place were i have created a masterpiece of friendship and heartbreak.<br />a place where i met my other half.<br />the place i've lost friends... and made new ones.<br />the place i became myself and learned about life. [sometimes in a not so beautiful fashion]<br />the place where i learned about love, betrayal, drugs, and reality.<br />the place that has been everchanging with me, the traffic still zooms, and i still go crazy sometimes.<br />the place that i will leave, and come back to when i need rescue.<br />i'm beginning to realize that i've taken advantage of the safety and comfort of home.<br />i will be leaving soon, i will be leaving you.<br />i will embark on a brand new adventure, alone, but with thousands of other human beings, completely different, and entirely the same.<br />people will cry, and i will cry, and then eventually from somewhere down inside there will creep a smile.<br />and i will say it's okay, because it will always be you & me.<br />the memories will fly through my brain, and i will recall all the good times, the stupid fights, the times we thought would last forever, but seemed to disappear so fast.<br />this place holds past.<br />this place is home.<br />so pretty soon we will go.<br />but that time is not now &gt;&gt; no we still have some time to photograph the memories & download the songs that make up<br />...................... lifes mixed tape...........................<br />so bring on the bubble.<br />the bubble that has shaped our lives.